Issue No. 20 | Spring 2019

Coulda-Been Ku

1.

We endured so much.

No one else could have done it.  

I loved you. I’m sorry. 

4.

What I remember 

Most? My hand-crafted letters

un-opened. Un-seen. 

7.

Sweet youth. You taught me:

It does not have to mean the 

world, to mean a lot. 

9.

I, available,

Open. You at a crossroads. 

Story of my life. 

14. 

I’ll never know why

your paint and my music can’t 

exist together. 

Time and space are cruel.

But you wrote that already. 

You call, and I sing.

20. 

Oh, the agony 

of being seen. Dark chapter. 

I loved you. Too much. 

23. 

You showed us how to 

love harder.  First rebellion.

The first, everything.

27.

I should have loved you 

better. Not The One. 

But the best I knew. 

The hurt is nothing 

now—turned to gratitude and

sentiment. All one.

You get three stanzas.

For in the end, I’m proud of 

us. I’m proud of us.

33. 

Breadcrumbs are savage. 

I am nobody’s ‘just in case.’

Hear this: Crumbs aren’t food. 

35. 

Time stopped in the snow. 

Stay, oh beautiful boy from 

the long ago bus.

Fin. 

All the Coulda-beens

Have lead to you. You you you—

You were worth the wait.